My Weight Loss Journey

I am one of the millions of people who have always struggled with weight loss. I have yo-yo’d up and down all through my life; sometimes chubby, sometimes obese, and occasionally thin.

I cannot remember a time before in my life that I was completely happy and satisfied with my weight, even since childhood. Every time I got near my goal weight, my fat thoughts, patterns, and doubts would creep back in and I would find myself FAT AGAIN!

On the surface I wanted to be thin and I would talk down to myself for being overweight, but on a deeper level I believed that I didn’t deserve to be thin, and I also didn’t want to give up the security and other comforts that being overweight gave me. I know that now.

I felt unworthy and it was difficult to express myself. Extra weight was the security blanket that allowed me to make excuses to not be all that I can be. I was not allowing the well-being that is mine by birthright. I was not allowing my authentic self to emerge. I was hiding inside, under a thick blanket of fat.

I used food to shove down emotions and things that I wanted to say but didn’t because I cared about what others would think about me. I put other people’s opinions and feelings before how I felt and believed, and used food to keep my feelings about it at bay.

When I had lost weight before, it was pure willpower and a major struggle because I had not done the work to release old associations to food. I found motivation to go on a diet and lose the weight, but I had not done the true inner work that leads to a healthy body, self worth and living with joy so it did not last for the long term.

Before

After

I was always looking for the magic pill, the psychological breakthrough, the miracle diet, the one “outside” thing that would let the thin me, the REAL ME, come out! I was looking for an answer outside myself, when the answer lay inside, on inner emotional work and feeling worthy and self confident.

Just going on a diet did not change how I felt about myself and my feelings of unworthiness. I needed more than just a food diet to keep the weight off in the long run. I needed a mental diet too!

I was able to manifest many amazing things in my life through processes I learned from my dear friend and spiritual advisor, Marilyn Umbach. She taught me about the Universal Laws and how to use them to create magic and miracles in my life.

I made detailed lists of what I wanted, I thought about it, and more importantly, I FELT IT, I EXPECTED IT, I KNEW I DESERVED IT and then I let it go, asking for the Highest Good for All Concerned.

And boy did the magic happen! I ended up on 10 acres of ocean front property in the most biologically intense place on earth in the rainforests of Costa Rica where dolphins and whales and monkeys and macaws abound. I founded a non-profit foundation working to create a protected marine sanctuary, I created an eco lodge, boats, and living my dream of having dolphins and whales in my front yard (the Pacific Ocean!) It all came together better than I could have dreamed, quickly and easily!

But I could not seem to apply my deliberate creation skills to my body! Isn’t that ironic? I think everyone has their strengths, some are good at making money, some are good at being thin, some have great relationships, some find the perfect job… wouldn’t it be nice to be all that? Well, we can!

I had created the life of my dreams, but had not yet turned those manifestation skills inward, on my own body. That is until I discovered that I had to re-create the images I had of my body and re-wire and re-program my way of thinking. I realized that diets only last as long as my willpower held out. I had to find my self worth, I had to really believe that I deserved to be thin and I had to release the need for a wall of fat around me for security. I had to stop concentrating on fat and weight loss and feeling bad because of my weight and shift my focus to feeling good, feeling and seeing my ideal body and therefore attracting that to me without resistance.

We see a lot of people who are really successful in other areas of their life, but are still overweight. Weight loss is very different than making money and manifesting material things. Weight loss is very personally about YOU and YOUR PHYSICAL BODY. It takes different and really concentrated work to get thin for good. For me, manifesting material things is easy compared to losing weight.

In June of 2005, after slipping in my bathroom and falling on my face, I knew I needed some self care time. I took a trip to the Bahamas where I had first swam with dolphins almost ten years earlier.

When I got back from the trip, a friend who was on the boat sent me photos. I was shocked when I saw the pictures of myself, not because of my big black eye and bruised face, but because of the size of my body! I looked like a huge blimp! I had to weigh over 300 pounds!

It was a major wake-up call. I knew I had to do something fast. I had known I was fat, but I didn’t realize I was THAT FAT. Most overweight people do not realize how they look to others.

From experience, I know that overweight people have a way of ignoring and not really seeing our bodies as they really are. We rarely look in the mirror. We conveniently ignore the size of our bodies. I had no idea that I looked like that. It scared me. It shocked me.

I decided that this time I was going to do the work, and I was going to find ways to make sure that it was for good, not another roller coaster ride. Not only was I tired of being fat, I knew that it is really bad for your heart and your general health to go up and down in weight and I certainly was not getting any younger! NOW NOW NOW was the time!

This was the birth of the I AM DIET and my new way of thinking and being. I dove deeper into my conscious and subconscious thoughts and feelingsand did the work to change my habits and associations to food by getting clear on my DESIRES, using my INTUITION and INNER GUIDANCE and paying attention to and deliberately changing my EMOTIONS and THOUGHTS. This was a new kind of diet and workout, a mental workout!

THE I AM D.I.E.T.

D – Desires and Deservability: I wrote down all my desires around being thin, i.e. I wanted to wear cute clothes, I wanted to feel good about myself, I wanted to feel healthy, etc. It is very important to create passion and desire for your new body and healthy weight.

Nothing is more important than that you feel worthy and that you know that you DESERVE all your desires. If you can get this, the rest will easily fall into place. Without feeling worthy of being thin, you would just be going on another diet again.

I – Intuition: I used my intuition and inner guidance to find the right food plan, healing methods, and products that would serve me and my body. I became very in-tune with my body’s needs, not cravings. I made friends with my body.

E – Emotions: For most of us, food is a very emotional thing. We all have emotions tied to it, whether it is starving kids in Africa, stuffing your feelings down with food, using food to keep people away, feeling unworthy of having all you desire (this is a BIG ONE!), etc. I identified the emotions I had around food and how I used food to feel better, and then worked my way into new associations with food. The most important key here is feeling worthy of being at a healthy weight.

T – Thoughts: I changed my thoughts about my body, about myself, and replaced these thoughts with new, healthy, positive thin thoughts! I visualized myself as thin, REALLY FELT IT and soon, I WAS! I also changed my thoughts about food itself, what is good foods and bad foods and re-wired my beliefs about how food affects my body.

By doing the inner work as outlined above, I was able to lose 170 pounds in less than a year! And now I want to help you achieve your healthy weight and to feel great both physically and mentally.

I am not some skinny doctor who has no experience of what it is actually like to be overweight and even obese. I have been there. I know what it is like to get the disapproving stares and to be judged as lazy and incompetent without getting to know me. I know the embarrassment of having to ask for a seat belt extension on an airplane or being turned down for a ride at an amusement park for not being able to fit in the seats. I know the yo-yo roller coaster of feeling bad for being fat and then eating to feel better, continuing the viscous cycle.

And because I know, very intimately, what it is like to be trapped inside a fat body, wanting so much to be thin, I can relate to you and help you from an insider’s point of view.

Are you ready for the REAL you to come out and play? Are you ready to finally shed not only the excess weight, but negative thinking and self talk? Purchase my I AM DIET book and Becoming Thin Guided Visualizations from our store. Super charge your weight loss journey by signing up for my mailing list which will allow you to be updated on new blog posts, products and programs. Join us on Facebook on both our private group and profile pages and on Instagram. Check out my Blog, which will be constantly updated with not only weight loss information, but general health and happiness posts too.

I am with you on your weight loss and new lifestyle journey. You’ve got this! Now let’s get this party started!

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